Killing Me Softly with His Song  

EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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11/21/2019 4:08 pm
Killing Me Softly with His Song


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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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11/21/2019 4:10 pm

I Will Survive
Grace
Bad Bad Leroy Brown
The Logical Song
Hotel California
Stuck In the Middle with You
I39m a Believer
Bohemian Rhapsody
How to Forget
Suspicious Minds
The Joker

At a certain level, I've always known I don't, truly, love being alone all the time. It's why I joined japaneseadultgirlfriend.com again, on the nineteenth of August. I had just gotten myself into such a state trying to figure out who was whom on Fetlife, that I forgot to connect with real people in real life. Lort, to say I was being ridiculous...

It was a relief, refreshing almost, to go to the hotel that my friend paid for. I did all the things I hadn't been doing, I took care of my damn self. And, yeah, I tweeted a lot too. Bwahahahaha. There's evidence of my trip to the hotel both on Instagram and Twitter. I went out to eat at a seriously good Chinese Restaurant. Honestly, if anyone is in Orlando and wants a good Chinese place, I've got the name. Fresh, Authentic Chinese Food, none of that take out or buffet stuff. (Which, to be sure, has it's place)

Now, look, I thought it was that week that I drunk texted and flirted with mr sexy pants. But, it wasn't, it was the following week. I forgot that I did a whole lot of hotel stays in August. Mainly because I was being targeted by Anonymous, and I wasn't sure where to turn. Hell, I even contacted my third husband and had him come pick up all of my identification besides my Florida State ID. I just wasn't sure if someone was going to break into the house.

I have three computers full of information, people, and it's not like my phone and computer weren't stolen in a robbery in the past. I knew, by the beginning August, that the game I was playing with Anonymous was dicey. I didn't know what they were prepared to do. I was trying to psych myself up to write this story, but never quite got there. My curiosity kept getting in the way, I kept pushing myself to do more.

The thing is, though, I've always used sex as a way to release stress. And, I hadn't had sex in a long time because I was being much more careful than I had in the past. I was being picky and wanted to actually know the person before fucking them; amazing huh? That's growth, people.

It's why I was so in when my friend wanted to have a rendezvous, and was so disappointed when he backed out..it was tough for me during this time. I wanted a real connection; drinking wine; and welll...mr sexy pants came to mind that night in Mid July. I not only drunk texted him, I also got on Instagram and made a video. It's still there...(she says giggling after watching herself drunkenly hit a man, publicly, on Instagram).

By this time? I was posting pics pretty heavily. Composition pieces that I designed and took the pictures for, I was gaining a following just based on that alone. And, after my drunken talk on Instagram, wellllllll.....some other stuff started happening. People showed up in my inbox, one after the other...

The romance scammers began.

Soooooo, I did some stuff. Online, in private, and I'm not going to tell you all the stories, but there are three that stand out the most that I'm eventually going to tell. Just remember, though, I still had this rogue program in my phone, and I was dealing with texts and there was a whole thing I did on a dating site that I didn't know was a dating site.

Shoot, ya'll, I can't even remember the name of the dating site, it wasn't one of the larger ones. It was a hookup site, and I may have had some cyber sex that ended up pissing me off. By the way, I only joined the site as a favor to one of my “friends” in text messages. Lort, I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off.

The other thing that got started were the bitcoin people. And, boy, there's a couple stories there.

And, there was the way my family was acting on Facebook that made absolutely no sense.

One of the biggest things that happened during this time was that Nick and I got into it. Now, look, we're both kind people who normally don't get in each others' way. I'm more of a live and let live type of person. But, Nick's Hoarding and Survivalist mentality was REALLY starting to get to me.

All the weapons everywhere? The bullshit he made out of cardboard that sat all over the house just collecting dust. The house? As I said in an earlier post, it was as neglected as I was. So, well, I took charge more and more as time went on....tough love people. I learned the power of tough love.

After umpteen conversations where he didn't listen to me over the course of a month, I walked into his room and knocked a bunch of cardboard toys on the floor. Welllllllllll...Nick was mad. He put his hands on me. I stood my ground, and he took his hands off of me.

We talked it out, so no one get in a huff. I certainly didn't call the police, though I could have. And, since then? I've been the Admiral while he's been the Captain. Mind you, he makes all the financial decisions when it comes to the house, so I'm not totally in charge. I just decide what's going to get done, and leave it to him to carry out my orders.

Look, I was doing shit too. It's not like I've completely left things in his hands, just that we, at that time, had less of a partnership and more of a dictatorship. We did things my way, PERIOD. And, I gave him breaks to do his Nick things, it's not like I was a slave driver.

Things have changed. We're more like partners in this Foundation and Church, now, though I still call most of the shots. You know, cuz I'm me.

That's all for now, people. Debs needs a breaky break.

More tomorrow...

Killing Me Softly with His Song

by

Roberta Flack

Strumming my pain with his fingers
Singing my life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
I heard he sang a good song, I heard he had a style
And so I came to see him, to listen for a while
And there he was, this young boy, a stranger to my eyes
Strumming my pain with his fingers (one time, one time)
Singing my life with his words (two times, two times)
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
I felt all flushed with fever, embarrassed by the crowd
I felt he'd found my letters and read each one out loud
I prayed that he would finish, but he just kept right on
Strumming my pain with his fingers (one time, one time)
Singing my life with his words (two times, two times)
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Yo, L-Boog, take me to the bridge
Woah
Woah-oah-ah-ah-ah uh, uh
La-la-la, la, la, la
Woah, la
Woah, la (ha, ha, ha, ha)
La-ah-ah-ah-ah
Strumming my pain with his fingers (yes, he was singing my life)
Singing my life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Yo, put your hands together for L-Boogie (strumming my pain)
From the Refugee Camp (yeah, yeah)
(Singing my life) up in here, you know how we do, L-Boogie up in here
Wyclef, Prazwell, said L-Boogie up in here
Wyclef up in here
My man Lil' Base (Prazwell up in here)
Jerry one time
T Rocks up in here, we got Warren up in here
This is how we (Warren up, up in here, Outsiders up here)
We got Fallon up in here, Mulaney, Mulaney's (Refugee Camp, Refugee Camp)
Everybody got a breakin' point kid
And they'll rat on you
The family ni~~~s will rat on you
That's why we gotta be prepared to take whoever out we need to
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Norman Gimbel / Charles Fox

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ULIXBIG 65M
5887 posts
11/21/2019 4:49 pm

Debs, I love the Roberta Flack version of this song! It holds very special memories for me.

(Cannot stand the more recent rendition!)


Logan0867 52M
180 posts
11/21/2019 7:05 pm

wow glad you made it through so to speak. *hugs*


backpocket13 42M
8645 posts
11/22/2019 12:31 am

Hey Hedonist,
...........Hang in There Gorgeous!...........
Sinfully Yours, backpocket13


author51 56F  
83084 posts
11/22/2019 3:43 am

Here I thought I lived a full and interesting life..You my dear friend have me beat hands down.. xo Luv ya lady...xx

One can never have enough JOY in their life...


SC4wheels 46M
221 posts
11/22/2019 11:05 am

I wasn't aware of the original by Roberta Flack, but I have always enjoyed The Fugees version with Lauryn Hill singing. Great song.


EnigmaInitiative 51F  
2631 posts
11/22/2019 11:33 am

    Quoting ULIXBIG:
    Debs, I love the Roberta Flack version of this song! It holds very special memories for me.

    (Cannot stand the more recent rendition!)
She sings it so well, doesn't she?

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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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11/22/2019 11:34 am

    Quoting Logan0867:
    wow glad you made it through so to speak. *hugs*
Hugs...still hanging in there. Things are calm in the online world now, for me, at least.

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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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11/22/2019 11:36 am

    Quoting backpocket13:
    Hey Hedonist,
    ...........Hang in There Gorgeous!...........
    Sinfully Yours, backpocket13
Hey Sexy Sinful One!

Thanks

I'm hanging in there, would be better if I had someone to clean out these pipes...ya know.

Happy Friday

Hedonist One



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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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11/22/2019 11:37 am

    Quoting author51:
    Here I thought I lived a full and interesting life..You my dear friend have me beat hands down.. xo Luv ya lady...xx
It's been a wild ride, that's for sure.

I'm out of the "game" now, I need to focus on my real life more. Ya know?

Happy Friday Joy

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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
2631 posts
11/22/2019 11:37 am

    Quoting SC4wheels:
    I wasn't aware of the original by Roberta Flack, but I have always enjoyed The Fugees version with Lauryn Hill singing. Great song.
It is a great song!

Thanks for coming by!

Happy Friday

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