Life returning to somewhat normal. Is there such a thing as normal though?  

whoisagentj 49M
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7/23/2019 8:24 am

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7/24/2019 6:10 am

Life returning to somewhat normal. Is there such a thing as normal though?


Well, it's amazing what a night's sleep can do.

Today, I got up after the night before I downed 3 Tylenol and 10mg of melatonin in order to go to sleep, and to be honest, I slept well. 's because last night was a cool night, so I was able to open my windows and get a cool night air breeze coming in, which smelled amazing. Fresh air has a way of knocking me the hell out when I sleep, and man did I need some sleep. I also went to bed exactly at 10PM and got up at 6:10am, and for the most part I woke up refreshed. Sometimes, you just have to put the day behind you and focus the past is in the past and you need to deal with today. Plus my mom was feeling somewhat better, and helped knowing I didn't have to get up in the middle of the night to help her out.

I also got a message from a member here who read my blog and she passed me her info so I could talk to her today. I did, and Sophie, if you are reading this, thank you so much! It helped being able to talk to someone today, even if it was just small talk, and us getting to know each other better. It allowed me to get my mind back on track.

Before I went to bed last night, I took a nice hot soak for a bath to relax in some Epson salt and really helped to take it easy. After , I watched a bit of tv, but then I turned it off and around 9PM I just focused on meditation and breathing, and really helped to relax and center myself. It took a while to relax, but I turned off all of the lights with the exception of my Himalayan salt lamp, focused on light, and weirdly enough, I felt better.

I just hope things start settling down. Also my comes back today, which I'm looking forward to. I hope she gets back safe and sound. I miss her. Also I realized why I got into the accident. I gave her my St. Christopher medal, which I normally have in my car to protect me from accidents. Well I gave her the medal to protect her, and I had no protection in the car, which is why I got into the accident. LOL! I know, you might think 's , but I didn't have it and I got into the accident so...well, there's .

Today I'm trying to fend off the people at work from hounding , and I've got to sneak out early at work in order to get my car checked out to determine the to have it repaired back to normal.

Heh....normal. What is normal? I've been questioning a lot as of late. What is normal? It seems my life as of late has been full of stressful situations and problems to deal with. Is this normal for ? my life has to be filled with some type of hardship no matter what? Must I deal with non-stop problems creep into my life? And I swear, I'm trying. I'm trying so hard to be positive in my life, but it seems as of late, I clear one negative thing in my life, and another one pops up in it's place. Of course, I have to thank thax0 again for helping keep myself a bit grounded. What I need to do is to keep focusing on the positive things I have going for in my life now in order to keep myself centered.

My mom and dad are still alive.
I have a full-time steady career for now is doing well and there is no signs of stopping with the work.
I'm getting my bills down, which is still a chore, but it's slowly getting better.
I'm alive, with no major ailments, and got all my fingers and toes.
I've got a place to sleep.
I've got clean underwear (never underestimate the power of clean underwear).
I have two wonderful love and they are in good health.
And I have some really good people here who actually care about me enough and post here to keep me going.

In short, the major things are ok. Am I going through some rough patches? Yeah. But for the most part, I'm ok, my family is ok for now, and I'm just trying to get through it all. And I want to say thank you for the people who posted to , trying to keep positive and helping through this. It's still rough going, but I'm determined to keep positive as much as possible.

Now...the getting laid part....'s a problem. LOL!

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On a side note...today is my last day being a gold member. I'm going to be going back to being a standard member again starting tomorrow, so my seeing messages will be an issue. However, you can still leave me private messages above, which I can still see, and I can reply back to you in my blog for messages if needed.

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thax013 42M
1089 posts
7/23/2019 11:28 am

Normal is overrated, strive for β€œ Better β€œ. Better than before. That requires small steps. With the small steps, great strides can be accomplished. Often times we do not recognize the great strides until we have done them and can look back upon them. Getting bills and debt down is one amazingly giant stride, one which you are in the middle of, and going strong. THAT IS FREAKING AWESOME. I would also add to your list: good mannered, well spoken, interesting, and intelligent. All of which are evident in your blog.

Problems ... problems happen, some self caused, some from life in general, and some from just plain bad luck. If they are not taken care of, then they become much bigger, and can create more problems.

They happen ... and need to be taken care of. You are doing that ... congratulations ... and good job. Keep it up. More will come, and you can take care of them also. If they become too big, get help. No one can handle everything alone.

Visit my blog if you want to at thax013 and thank you very much!


whoisagentj replies on 7/24/2019 6:10 am:
After some introspection on that, I have to agree that "normal" should not be strived for. I hate using that word, because what's normal in this world? Things change from day to day, so today's normal, in some situations may not be normal tomorrow.

I do agree that I probably should be striving for better. And that my goal should be working to eliminate the problems I have. They may not be fixed right away and some take some extreme amount of work. But they do get taken care of over time if you apply some hard work toward them.

Thanks again thax. You seem to be a beacon of wisdom I can rely on.

cinnamon0133 54F  
18036 posts
7/23/2019 9:02 am

Yes, you have a lot on your plate BUT you were still able to list the good things you have in your life. Btw reread the good things in your life... the things you listed are AWESOME!!
Your mom's health is extremely hard, but, sadly our parents growing old and sick is part of life, a VERY devasting part of life but still life.
I wish your mom well, I hope she has more good days then bad. You are 49 years old and you still have both your parents that is WONDERFUL!!
I do understand, been there, done it. I'm not cold hearted, I've been forced to toughen up do to life circumstances.
Focus on what you can control, focus on the positive, throw the rest to the wind and see where the pieces land. Do the BEST you can do, that's all anyone can ask or expect.
Find a hour just for you, every day. You will be amazed at how much clearer and better you feel.
We all have problems, I clear one problem and 5 more come at me. I take a deep breath and clear issues one at a time, even when my daughter calls me from 3 hours away (she lives 3 hours away) at 1am and tells me she is sick and has a high fever and she needs me, I'm getting on a train and going to her place. It's Life, just keep moving forward and doing your best😊😊😊

Treat Me Like A Angel And I Will Show You What Heaven Is Really Like


whoisagentj replies on 7/23/2019 9:59 am:
Thank you cinnamon. I think that's all I can do right now. I think that's the scary thing because part of me wants things to get better, but I have to be the realist and accept that life likes to throw lemons into my nutsack and tells me to make lemonade out of it while I'm doubled over in pain. LOL! It's not easy.

whoisagentj 49M
6035 posts
7/23/2019 8:25 am

As always, thanks for reading and thank you for being there. I appreciate everyone that stops by and lends me your eyes and ears.

Who can you call on to save the day?

Why none other than...


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